Emotional Purgatory


Eyes closed and not breathing
Suffocating and dreaming
Nightmares and screaming
Longing for definition and meaning

Lowly and crawling
Till I'm failing and faltering
And slipping and falling
Silently calling for morning

Deaf ears aren't hearing
Blind eyes see what I'm feeling
Mute lips speak clearly
Numb fingers to touch me

Unfeeling and reeling
Battered, broken, and revealing
These emotions I'm concealing
No energy left for healing
The heart I was stealing

And my own hand I was dealing
Is constantly killing and willing
To keep running and hiding
To keep secrets and confiding
To trust and be true
To be just like you
In everything that you do
And hate you too
And finally set itself free
And finally be like me
To repay my debt to society
So you can see the other side of me
And I'll rise and live again