Blank

I had that dream that again
You know the one
Where everyone has a thousand blank faces
You are lost in the crowd
Lost to everyone

I don't know anymore
It feels like I am no longer in my head
I am doing my normal things
Just watching the world go by
Watching as everything happens around me
But I can not do anything about it

I have no control over the actions
The way things go
Where they go to
And how they end up
I have no idea
Of why I feel this way
I have no feeling
All is just numb

I laugh, I smile, I do it all
I am the same person on the outside
But numb all else
I feel like I am blank when I look back at someone
I feel like I am blank to the world
The body is just the shell
While the rest is blank

Why do I feel this way
What have I done to feel like this
What have I given up
What do I have to do to be noticed
I will not break down
I will not be destroyed
But yet I still feel blank
A flame of hope
Flickers
But yet I still feel blank