Over thinking

Sometimes I wish I could just shut off my mind
Shut it off from the world
So no one else can get in there
So no one else can read my thoughts
So no one can read my emotions
My expressions.....me

Thinking about nothing...about everything
Situations in my world
Friends here, there, and others never to be seen again
Places I am at, where I have been, where I wish I was
Situations I am at, ones I have past, ones to come

I feel a battle waging in my thoughts
A war where no side can be the victor
A war which only I can stop
Before the only one to perish...is me
To be ravaged....left cold and emotionless
Shut off from the world....mentally....emotionally....
Physically....and on the spiritual level

Leaving the world as it is
Only to never know again
Somehow moving on
To just find a grip

Something new to grab onto
Only letting go when it bleeds
Using it as much as I can
Leaving it cold

I don't know what to think
To say...to feel...to live
I wish the voices would stop arguing
Leaving me peace to think
To stop bouncing in my head
From subject to subject
Leaving me time to reflect
I guess the mind is the strongest weapon
And the strong foe

Shadows....demons....faeries....wisps
Plagues....torments....tortures....masochism
Angels....light....color....freedom
_Expression....emotion....life....thoughts

Only my mind can fix this plague
Only I can calm my mind
Only time can help these thoughts
Dealing with the problems head on
Seeking closure on what I can gain it for